...imma back to JB...

...this should be posted last week...
...yaya...
...im am back to JB last fri nite...
...i moved frm Sun-U Residence back to Pucung my lovely house...
...haha...
...i cant imagine my things filled my dad's car...
...a lotsa things...
...hehe...
...cant blame me for tht...
...i bought things there in this 9 months time...
...go with half filled my dad's car with 6 passengers on...
...but back with a car full with only 3 passengers...
...u can imagine how many things in the passengers seat...
...hehe...


...bye bye my nice table tht accompany me for 9 months...


...really nice n cozy room n bed... sobs sobs...bb...


...part of my luggage...boxes n boxes...


...the back seat view of my dad's car... hehe...


...bye bye lagoon view from my room balcony...i will definitely miss this nice view...


...glamorous concert view...

...peacefull nite view...




...i will miss the time WE in AUSMAT tee gals...

...proudly said...
...i had GRADUATED from AUSMAT...
...and...
...im am going to be very vex in these few weeks for the application for uni...
...oh gosh...
...im in a dilemma AGAIN...
...my parents is giving me the full priority to choose watever course tht i like...
...thts wat making me really vex...
...i dunno to continue with science or with accounting...
...aisk aisk aisk...
...this sat going for the FACON edu fair...
...i knew i have to make my choice either on tht day or the day after...
...oh my...
...now wat i hope is i can get high ATAR for the exam...
...high ATAR will at least lessen my burden in deciding which course should i take...
...pls do bless me...

...its my HOLIDAY...
...juz had my 1st gathering with my sisters n frenz...
...a small n cozy 1...
...i <3 the feeling of it...
...more outings after this...
...<3...
...i wanna enjoy till the next intake im in!!!...
...will have to mug books in between to prepare myself...
...FIGHTING!!!...

...a wonderful ♥GRADUATION nite♥...

...i had already GRADUATE from AUSMAT on the 18th...
...had a great nite...
...many 1st time i had on tht nite...
...♥ it...

...started to prepare from 130 tht afternoon...
...went to hunt for my dinner beg last minute...
...then manicure...
...hairdo appointment at 3...
...makeup appointment at 4...
...but still...
...me n my fren were late to Holiday Villa where the dinner was held...
...hahaha...


...after makeup...



...i have to say i really ♥ my lecturers soooo much...
...they r AWESOME!!...
...their welcome dance is GREAT!!!...
...they r sooo cute!!!...
...♥ them...
...the food were nice...
...they atmosphere is great also...
...take a lot of pic with my frens n lecs...
...checkout my FB for those pic...
...hehe...
...i have to say tht...
...thts a very GREAT nite spending with all those frenz n lecs tht i ♥...
...the dinner ended at 11...
...but...
...a whole bunch of us went CLUBBING since we r all dressed up n thts the nite to enjoy...
...this is the 1st time i went clubbing...
...went MOS at sunway...
...had fun with all those frenz...
...n thx for those guys tht protect we gals when clubbing...
...gentleman ya... not bad not bad...
...haha...
...gonna enjoy the few weeks left tht i can spent with all my frenz here...
...i WONT ever forget this nite...
...n ofcoz u guyz who made this nite wonderful...
...♥...


...frenz frenz frenz...♥

...WACE LAST PAPER...

...done with the most 3 hectic days in my exam period...
...done with MATHS BIO n CHEM!!!...
...omg...
...phewwww...
...relieved dy...
...kinda happy yesterday after my chem paper...
...coz i left with 1 paper...
...but...
...some of them taking pure science ady done with their AUSMAT...
...oh my...
...i have to wait till next tues...
...for my accounting n finance paper...
...the paper i MUST score for it...
...last paper...

...bio paper was easier than the MOCKS paper...
...but time constraint is always a problem when u noe the ques...
..>.<...
...i finish the paper on whole...
...but sad to say...
...there r still points tht i can write more...
...i have to skip to another essay ques coz need to finish 4 essays...
...hope all the points i gave r acceptable...
...as for chem...
...hmmm...
...i tried my best to answer all the ques...
...but...
...this 2 papers r really the papers tht many cant finish it...
...can see the face frm everyone in the hall...
...haha...
...so...
...all the BEST for those 2 papers...

...went sing k with my frenz yesterday after the chem paper...
...we need a break after having exam continuously for 3 days n more than a week of tension life...
...i have to say...
...i ENJOYED it very MUCH!!!...
...time flies...
...we left a month to play together then after tht...
...most of us will be apart ba...
...a very memorable time here...
...frm me alone till having this bunch of cute frenz who r 2 yrs younger than me...
...thx for no discrimination on me...
...gotta enjoy the last month together...
...a lot of things planned to do after WACE...
...so...
...yeah!!!...
...count down count down!!!...

...tmr going to meet my mummy...
...yeah!!!!...
...but only my mummy...
...my sis n bro having their SPM n final exam so they cant follow...
...daddy have to stay home also coz of this...
...sad sad...>.<

...cousin going to get married on the 13th tht is this sat...
...going to meet my grandma and aunties who i didnt meet since CNY...
...actually im not very close with the cousins on my mum side...
...kinda weird also...
...aisk aisk...
...but but but...
...tht means i cant study these few days la...
...omg...
...have to bring my notes to hotel...
...>.<...
...haiz...
...suppose to relax de ma...
...poor me!!!...
...haiz haiz haiz...

...wow...
...a long post la...
...aisk...
...BUCK UP FOR THE LAST PAPER!!!...

...WACE 2 maths...

...another paper down...
...3 more to go...
...okay...
...as usual...
...tortoise me cant get to finish well my maths paper...
...there's always not enough time for me...
...omg...
...haiz haiz haiz...
...nvm...
...ady passed...
...hmmm...
...the paper was quite tough...
...the ques asked r confusing...
...omg...
...>.<...
...but i hope wat i did r correct...
...*crossed fingers*...
...ok...
...is a good thing another paper done...
...3 more 3 more...
...tmr bio bio bio...
...my favourite sub...
...bio...
...pls be good n hope i can do everything well...
...*crossed fingers*...
...i need to score for it...
...pls pls pls...
...pls be an easy paper...
...FIGHTING!!!...


...finger crossing for all my papers after today...
...hope i can do well...
...^^...

...WACE 1...

...done with my ELD paper for WACE...
...thts mean another 4 papers for me...
...hmmm...
...there's still a long way to go...
...omg...
...>.<...

...hmm...
...talk bout the ELD paper...
...the listening part this time is the toughest tht i had...
...the echoes r really distracting...
...cant hear properly...
...i tried to fill in watever i heard n move on coz i noe i never have enough time to finish bout the synthesis writing n essay part...
...at 1st wanted to do my essay 1st...
...coz of the lesson i learnt in the mocks...
...but still...
...i continue according to the paper...
...finish my comprehension n synthesis part...
...still left only 50 mins for my last essay...
...read through all the ques...
...pick ques then write the planning for it...
...tht ady took 10 mins and i only had bout 30++ mins for essay...
...i noe i cant finish it with the points i thought of...
...so i wrote 3 of the points n elaborate it in order to make it bout the same length for every paragraph...
...thts wat ms julia said...
...dont let the examiners noe tht u r not organise nlack of time...
...so i rather elaborate the points i had than writing another points which will make only a small papragraph...
...>.<...
...actually i felt a big disappointment when i hand in my paper...
...hate this kinda feeling...
...a not well written essay...
...i knew...
...haiz...
...sad ar!!!!...
...hmmm...
...still have to move on...
...3 papers for next week...
...gonna be a tough 3 days for me...
...omg...
...maths..bio..chem...
...crushing together from mon to wed...
...OMG!!!...
...WORK HARD ba...
...FIGHTING...
...>.<...



...listless me during exam...

...its time to decide AGAIN!!...

...thts my table full of notes...
...chem chem for tonite...
...hehe...
...with bear bear accompany me...
...FIGHTING!!!...



...NOV...
...FIGHTING month for ME!!!...
...FIGHTING!!!!! WEIPING!!!...



...there's always path for us to choose...
...these r the 2 possible paths tht im interested in...
...n my parents encourage me to continue with...
...i need encouragement from them...
...coz im not sure of wat i want now...
...>.<...
...also interested in accounting n finance...
...but...
...dnt feel like wasting my effort in sciences...
...but but but...
...there will still be chance for me taking accouting n finance...
...hehe...
...but still...
...these mayb not the course i will choose for my uni...
...things might change right??...
...something for sure is...
...with good results i will be able to choose the course and uni i like...
...so...
...im going to GIVE ALL OUT for my WACE!!!...
...im determined from the beginning...
...its towards the end now...
...the effort is going to pay well!!!...
...i do definitely hope so...
...wish me LUCK LUCK LUCK!!!!...
...JIAYOU!!! FIGHTING!!! GAMBATEH!!!...
...=)...

...WACE coming...

...omg...
...time flies...
...its ady 1st of NOV!!!...
...and my WACE exam going to start in the 4th...
...im still not tht anxious...
...omg...
...not a very good thing...
...but...
...im stressed out...
...coz of studies..future..n everything happened around me almost everyday...
...end of revision week means tht no more classes anymore for us...
...but...
...our lecturers are all so kind n ask us to email them if we wanna meet them for any prob we encounter during these few days...
...doing all the sample papers...
...trying to figure out all those ques by myself...
...hope im able to figure out myself...

...long time didnt update my blog...
...many things happened...
...but i dont noe how to write it out...
...feeling alone is the thing tht i about to feel ok with it...
...sometimes really not tht scary when being alone...
...^^...
...quietness making me feel so so so uneasy...
...but..hang in there...
...going end soon...
...weiping...
...u will be able to go back to ur sweet home n enjoy ur hols b4 ur brand new uni life...
...HANG IN there!!!...
...cheer up!!!...
...not going to disappoint anyone anymore...
...especially my family who r always there for me...
...^^...
...hang in there...
...1 month more in this small room...
...I will be perfectly alright!!...
...GAMBATEH!!!...
...FIGHTING!!!...

...ooppsss...

...seems like i didnt update my bloggie for quite some time dy...
...since the day i start my hols after mocks...
...>.<...
...hmm...
...currently back to hostel dy n started my revision week...
...had a pleasent hols at home n meeting up with kokyuan n eeling...
...really hate the feeling leaving home although im here for 7 months dy...
...i really do need lotsa time to adapt the environment...
...luckily i got my cousins over here...
...or else...
...i dont noe how m i going to survive here...

...yesterday was the 1st day back to college...
...yaya...
...taking back the exam papers...
...a big NO NO for my accounting...
...greatly disappointed with the ACF mocks results...
...i think its time for me to really polish up my accounting AGAIN...
...kinda neglect it this time coz having 2 exams on mon n the next morning having ACF paper...
...really dont have much time to my revision well...
...have to put in effort this 2 weeks time...
...never thought of taking accounting again after lefting it a side for 2 yrs...
...i do have some interest in accounting...
...n i dont hate accouting also...
...so...
...i better polish it up to make it 1 of my best 4 results...

...quite sad to say tht tthe second day i ady taking MC...
...gosh...
...having terrible stomachache since yesterday nite...
...thought after taking the medicine n have some sleep then i will be ok as usual...
...but...
...i didnt have a good sleep yesterday nite...
...ended up taking MC today...
...gosh...
...the pain is like...>.<...
...called my cousin n told her im sick...
...then she come n pick me up to the clinic...
...really thank her soooo much la...
...she is working but after i msg her she come n fetch me immediately...
...the doc then said there is too many gas in my stomach...
...he can hear the sound in it...
...btw...
...the doc do look like my pervious manager in Public Bank...
...MrPeter...
...haha...
...kinda shocked when i saw the doc...
...had porridge for lunch with my cousin then she sent me back n back to work...
...sooo paiseh for letting her come n fetch me in her working time...
...aisk...
...>.<...
...back to hostel...
...called mummy n told her im sick n i had already had my medicine...
...she seems worried...
...aisk...again...
...then...
...while im sleeping...
...daddy called...
...oooppsss...thts wat come into my mind...
...daddy sound more worried than mummy...
...>.<...
...brave me hold my tears this time...
...but i do really miss them...
...especially when im sick...
...if im at home...
...i will have my mummy taking care of me...
...but now...
...i have to take care of myself...
...im old enough to be independent...
...i will take good care of myself like wat my dad sent me the day i come back from jb...
...when i reached LCCT i smsed both my sis n dad n told then i reached kl dy...
...then my dad reply me...
...ok..pls take care gal...
...feel soooo guilty like i didnt take care of myself n my dad have to say pls in order for me to take good care of myself...
...haha...
...i WILL take care of myself for u all who love me...
...feeling sleepy again...
...signing off...
......

...back afTer MOCK...

...i finished my mock exam...
...miserable 1 week for me...
...tired n stress...
...but...
...i think i wont be satisfied with any of my papers...
...omg...
...y cant i finish the whole paper praperly with enough time??...
...espeacially my essays part...
...haiz...
...need to train the speed to write answers in a short n accurate way in 3 weeks time...
...ok...
...a short holiday for me...
...relax myself for a week??...
...i think tht would be more than enough ba...
...need to rest liao...
...really a panda these days...
...slept at 3 am the earliest...
...not bad not bad...
...haha...

...back to my home, my room n my bed...
...wooohooo!!!...
...but everytime back to sweet home means tht my daddy will have to rest more...
...coz he have to drive to kl n fetch me...
...n come back the same day...
...tht's y i said he is my HERO!!!...
...HERO of my life...
...heart him lots!!!...
...back to home made me feel less stress...
...its the magic of being at home...
...a safe place where u can rely on always...
...haha...
...resting mode *ON*!!...

...oraL tesT...

...done with my oral test...
...also means tht im done with the 25% of the marks dy...
...i was worried the whole morning n haad my chem test with a very blur mood...
...my invigilator is mr ROBERT...
...then there goes my oral with him...
...starting from introduction...
...then to focus ques based on an image he gave...
...lastly part c interaction with invigilator bout the whole eld course tht we take...
...hmmm...
...im really very sad coz i think i didnt include many points in it...
...the invigilator keep cut in n ask me another ques...
...omg...
...short of time or wat o??...
...should let me finish my point ma...
...>.<...
...now making me sooooo worried bout it...
...aisk...
...>.<...
...but wat to do...
...juz let it past ba...


...hmm...
...due to the stress i faced coz of oral n mock exam...
...kinda moody sometimes...
...i even break into tears yesterday in the end of bio lecture...
...>.<...
...its not my lec fault though...
...when he ask me wats wrong with me in the last test...
...i juz cant hold my tears back anymore...
...but really thx to my lec for listening to me n conforting me...
...i told him everthing happened tht cause me didnt prepare for his test last week...
...he said its okay...
...no big deal bout the marks...
...he juz shocked y i didnt do well in the DNA part...
...haiz...
...but juz as he said...
...letting it out now is better than keeping it n affecting my revision...
...she dont worth my tears...
...the god will c who is doing n putting in effort...
...thts wat he adviced me...
...todays lab...
...feel kinda awkward when see him...
...>.<...
...but he wanted to talk to me n ensure tht im okay now...
...i juz dont dare to go to the front n chat with him now...
...mayb in thurs ba...
...having a session with him n he is going to help me with my revision...
...really need to thx him for conforting me n letting me feel so safe to tell him all the things tht affecting me...
...i will do my BEST in the coming MOCK EXAM...
...wont let the test marks bother me again...
...i need to be strong...
...its juz 2 months to go...
...then everything will be all right...

...to YOU...
...treated u as my good fren doesn't mean tht i can help u do all the things tht suppose to be the group work...
...everybody need to study for exam n test...
...not only u...
...its not the 1st time to cover things for u...
...but its definitely the last time...
...pls be more responsible next time...
...or else the 1 suffer will be YOU...

...im serious this time!!...

...aisk...
...should be sleeping by now...
...but...
...im still very energetic...
...i noe wat i will like tmr in class...
...haha...
...have to admit tht im kinda slacking in the hols...
...i brought back the notes...
...taadaaaa...
...i juz read a bit...
...aisk...
...a big NO NO tht i shouldnt do now...
...i knew tht...
...but...
...back to home = rest + relax...
...agree??...
...>.<...
...im going to work hard from tmr...
...i mean real hard...
...coz a hard week ahead...
...n MOCK is really around the corner...
...the very corner...
...>.<...
...im kinda envy some of my frens now...
...n coz of the pic pic they post in FB...
...tht made me more determine to have the same life as them...
...wanted to have the life since im determined to study this course...
...so...
...nothing to hesitate now...
...wait n c me having the same life as them in less than 5 months...
...im sure for this time...
...***** ****** here i come!!!...
...FIGHTING!!!...

...back to my LIFE...

...okay...
...going back later in the morning...
...to kl...
...>.<...
...aisk!!!...
...as usual...
...dont really like to go back...
...coz i dont wanna be alone in the hostel...
...haiz...
...i still like my cosy home n room...
...i like it when i can see my sis sleeping next to me...
...at least in not tht scare...
...coz i scare of dark la...
...>.<...
...haha...
...still like lil girl...
...hmmm...
...but lucky me...
...still can enjoy my last few days of hols with my family...
...they going to send me back n stay at there overnite...
...a night to spend with them...
...then sat will go to my cousin house...
...at least not so soon back to hostel la...
...>.<...
...luckly i still got my cousin there...
...^^...
...doing my assignment at this kinda hour...
...aisk...
...>.<...
...test on tues...
...then presentation...
...MOCK EXAM!!!...
...a big OMG tht im going to face at the end of this month...
...>.<...
...T.T...
...i have to buck up...
...coz i noe wat i want!!!...
...clearly this time...
...i have to work hard in order to achieve tht...
...my dream!!...
...so...
...wait for me...
...i will definitely show u wat i got this time...
...I MEANT IT!!...
...bLess me!!!...
...^^...

...curL it...

...yipee...
...still on holiday...
...but... can start to countdown ady la...
...omg...
...haiz...
...>.<...

...yesterday went to saloon for a hair cut...
...but instead of haircut...
...i curled my hair...
...haha...
...a sudden decision i made...
...coz my hair started to be in a mess when it reached the shoulder length...
...aisk...
...mummy agree with wat the hairstylist's recommend...
...okay...
...curl it then!!...
...haha...
...actually quite anxious lo...
...coz its the 1st time i curled my hair...
...i scared the outcome will be like auntie lo...
...i keep remind the hairstylist dont make it too curl...
...i scare i will regret...
...then she asked me not to worry...
...she will make it natural...
...omg...
...relax for 2 hours...
...tadaaaa...
...DONE!!!...
...haha...
...with color will be nicer...
...thts wat the hairstylist said...
...mayb i should color it next time...
...=P...
...haha...
...i dont have any comment...
...coz im still not used to it...
...but mummy like it very much...
...she said look nicer n natural than the messy hair i had b4 curl it...
...=="...
...my hair got tht messy b4 this meh...
...>.<...
...haha... overall not so bad ba i guess...
...new hairstyle...
...new beginning...
...FIGHTING!!!...
...PRESENTATION n MOCK EXAM...
...HERE I COME!!! ^^...

...suNday...

...sunday again...
...im here in my hostel again...
...study for my chem test on tues...
...omg...
...test b4 going back home is not a good 1...
...coz im ady starting to have my holiday mood in me...
...haha...
...no no NO!!!...
...cannot like tht...
...haha...
...still must study...
...hehe...
...yesterday nite updated my table calender for this month...
...crossing the days is wat i like to do when i noe theres a holiday for me...
...hehe...
...counting down...
...2 days to my chem test...==
...3 days to meet my family!!!...
...yeah!!!...
...haha...
...daddy coming to fetch me again!!!...
...my beloved...
...tht day 1st time webcam with both daddy n mummy together...
...i miss them soooo much la...
...chat a lot with both of them...
...luckily this time i didnt let my tears out when my daddy call me 'girl'...
...haha...
...or else he will see me crying...
...always cant hold it when dad called me girl...
...coz made me feel like rushing back to my sweet home...
...im still not tht independent...
...>.<...

...friday...
...had a great outing with jingyi, joey, hooilynn, shanshan, wenji n wenxian...
...7 of us went for makan trip...
...hahaha...
...really ate a lot...
...had a very great time with those gals...
...yipeee!!!...
...lets go out again gals!!!...

...will be back to jb another 3 days...
...yeah!!!...
...but...
...im bringing my notes n all back...
...going to have my mock exam real soon la...
...>.<...
...then my WACE exam...
...n my presentations for EALD...
...but...
...meeting up frenz is a must also...
...haha...
...most of them r at jb dy la...
...sooooo fast...
...wait for me peeps!!!!...
...^^...

...continue study lo...
...chem!!!...
...heart you!!!...
...so...
...pls do heart me also ya...
...in order for me to score for you!!!...
...haha...
...=P...

...merdeKa!!...

...random title...
...coz today is merdeka day...
...haha...
...im in hostel currently and doing my MATHS assignment...
...waiting for my cute lecturer to reply my email...
...waited a few hours dy...
...ady sms her and let her noe i will email her dy...
...okay...
...keep on waiting then...
...will be back to jb soon...
...yipeee!!!...
...raya break!!!...
...but after break...
...is my mock exam ady...
...omg...
...so fast!!!...
...haha...
...thts mean im going to finish my AUSMAT soon...
...^^...
...yeah!!!...
...watched a lot of movie last weekend at my cousin house...
...felt sooo happy...
...haha...
...cant live without tv...
...^^...
...31st...
...BR day la...
...>.<...
...since im here at kl...
...i missed the chance of choosing BR icecream on the 31 ady...
...miss home...
...miss daddy n mummy...
...miss my bro n sis...
...miss them...
...omg!!...
...still have to wait till next week...
...>.<...
...the 8th only can go back...
...y cant they let us start holiday this week or from next week??...
...aisk aisk...
...counting down again...
...wait for me my SWEET HOME!!...

...wat happened to ME?!...

...purposely wore a bright red top today hoping that my mood will be bright n happy today...
...but...
...things turn another way round...
...im in a totally emo + bad mood...
...i juz need someone there for me when im unhappy...
...someone to talk to...
...a pair of listening ears...
...wat i got in this moody day is being alone in library...
...studying n doing all the ques paper...
...its nice to do tht sometimes though...
...hmmm...
...wat happened to me?!...
...sudden emo made me dont feel like talking today...
...stay quiet...
...alone...
...im stressed out ady i think...
...i must hang on...
...>.<...
...mayb a trip back home will be great...
...wait till raya break...
...back home study for my mock exam...
...>.<...
...wats on earth im thinking about?!...

...during bio class...
...smsed my roomate n tell her i wanna go jogging after class...
...although im really very tired after whole day class...
...but...
...thts the only way i can really release my stress...
...sweating do help i think...
...>.<...
...haiz...
...back to room after changing then went down jogging with my roomate...
...while jogging...
...think of many things...
...y im so moody today?...
...coz i feel lonely??...
...coz of pressure???...
...coz of disappointment????...
...coz of all the prob running in my head?????...
...im glad after jogging i feel much more better...
...at least i felt less emo...
...today...
...the 23rd...
...i will rmb it...
...deep in core of my heart...
...how hurt im today...

...reLievEd...

...yeah yeah yeah!!!...
...haha...
...i DONE my oral trial ady...
...let me cross it...
...oral trial...^^
...wat can i say bout the oral trial is...
...im TOO nervous...
...aisk...
...even the lec..Ms Maria notice it...
...haha...
...she keep saying...
...my dear, don’t be so nervous...
...then ask all of us take a deep breathe...
...so cute la...
...im not so satisfied with wat i did...
...a lot of...
...ummm...hmmm...arrrr...ya.. when i answer questions...
...plus...
...there are still pause when i present my answers...
...omg...
...those are not suppose to happen in an oral test...
...i have to start practicing n take all that weird sound out...
...haha...
...jiayou!!...
...okay...
...i really screwed my accounting test this time...
...omg...
...the ques was like...
...>.<...
...im half blank when i started to do the 1st ques...
...haiz...
...disappointed with myself la...
...omg...
...i cant screw my accounting n finance paper la...
...stress...
...haiz...

TO:assignments,
Can u pls leave me alone for a week n give me enough time to do my revision...a week will do... thx...

...haha...
...im out of my mind liao la...
...leave me ALONE assignments!!!!...

...nervous...oh my...

...juz as my title...
...im nervous NOW!!!...
...omg...
...i will be having my oral trial with Jan intake EALD lectuer...
...Ms Maria...
...i hope she is kind enough not to scare me tmr...
...omg...
...>.<...
...im really really nervous...
...i hope my heart wont jump out from my mouth tmr...
...oh my...
...>.<...
...what to prepare...
...tmr morning b4 oral still got accounting test...
...how can i concentrate like tht??...
...aisk aisk aisk!!...
...i hope i can do it tmr...
...pray for me...
...>.<...

...oh my...

...oopsss...
...long time didnt update my blog ady...
...many things happened...
...let me think where should i start...
...hmmm...
...went back to my sweet home last week...
...not for holiday...
...coz im sick...
...unhealthy me...
...but...
...blood taken again when went back for checkup...
...luckily not the worst n scary dengue this time...
...same old thing...
...drink more water n take more nutritious food...
...back on tues after 4 days mc...
...had a great time at home...
...but still worried bout assignments when resting at home...
...tons of assigments need to settle this 2 weeks...
...came back then straight away went back to college n meet my ACF lec...
...gotta catch up all the lectures when im absent...
...>.<...

...next week gotta be a hectic n heavy week...
...let me list it down...
...mon - wide sargasso sea book report due + maths test...
...tues - resit for ACF test + chem appoinment with lec...
...wed - chem extra class...
...thurs- ACF test + ACF assignment + oral trial...
...fri - Lab assesment...
...mon - bio assignment due...
...full n packed right???...
...oh my...
...when i need more rest...
...more assignment coming non stop...
...haiz...
...i cant fall sick in this kinda period la...
...must really add oil!!!...
...FIGHTING!!!...

...*deep inside my heart*...
...a new session...
...haha...
...i really felt so lucky la...
...when im sick...
...my family came n fetch me back home...
...its tiring to travel so long way to kl n go back once arrive...
...poor dad...
...i really HEART my mum n dad sooo much...
...muackkkssss...
...n my cousins...
...who care bout me...
...deep from my heart...
...THANKS *hugs*!!!...

...stUdy stuDY...

...wide sargasso sea...
...im gonna finish u real soon...
...finish the task n fight for the presentation!!!...
...i can de!!!!...
...^^...

...so in Love...

...omg...
...im soooo in love with edward n jacob...
...finally...
...i watched ECLIPSE ady!!!...
...hooray for me!!!!...
...hahaha...
...had a great nite...
...enjoy the movie...
...funny scene, romantic scene, etc...
...heart it!!!...
...both edward n jacob are humurous la...
...edward: dont he have a shirt?...
...jacob: im hotter than u...
...haha...
...*thumbs up*...
...LOVE IT!!!...

...moVie daY...

...yeah!!!...
...its wed again...
...time for me to update my bloggie...
...finally...
...today gonna go n watch eclipse with my roomate...
...haha...
...yeah!!!...
...last week wanna go watch de...
...but due to test n all...
...now only i going to watch it...
...ya...
...kinda outdated ady...
...should watch it earlier la...
...but...
...long story...
...nah...
...not going to talk bout it ady...
...at least...
...now i noe something n everything...
...cheer...

...okay...
...let me recall back wat happened the past few days...
...ya...
...mega sales...
...yipeee!!!...
...went shopping with my cousins last sat...
...we went midvalley n gardens...
...bought a sweater tht i heart it...
...happy...
...went gym last sat with my cousin b4 go shopping...
...so fun...
...but tiring...
...haha...
...i think probably due to the lazyness of me for not exercise since im here...
...haha...
...n OMG!!!...
...i gained weight ady la...
...super sad...
...>.<...
...diet diet diet!!!...
...haha...
...its easy to say than to practice...
...but i will watch my diet...
...*cross fingers*...
...i hope i can lose weight real sooonnn...
...^^...

...there should be more to write...
...a lot more...
...but i dont noe how to put it in words now...
...hmmm...
...mayb not today ba...
...till then...
...tata...
...my edward is waiting for me...
...hehe...

...juLy...

...oh my...
...i didnt update my blog for a week ady...
...haha...
...kinda bz...
...with the assignments n hw...
...so...
...oopppssss....
...wed is the day i like most bcoz my class end at 230...
...yipeee!!...
...thts the only time i can sit down n update my blog...
...haha...

...last week's career exploration week is not bad...
...i like the workshop sooo much...
...its interesting n the talks are awesome...
...very positive thinking thingy to me...
...i should think more positive la...
...better than being emo emo...
...^^...
...juz now chat with mummy...
...only then i realize...
...it had been a year after my dengue...
...wow...
...time passed real fast...
...kinda think back wat n how i suffer last year...
...hmmm...
...im glad im still okay here now...
...^^...

...got my results slip juz now at eld class...
...still got remarks beside every subjects...
...not bad not bad...
...haha...
...overall still not quite satisfied...
...but...
...i gotta work hard!!!...
...for the 50%...
...another few months to go...
...i can de!!!...
...*winks*...
...daddy n mummy gonna receive the result slip within this week i think...
...juz now ask mummy she said havent receive anything yet...
...didnt told her bout the remarks thingy...
...let them see themselves la...
...haha...
...jiayou gal!!!...


...i wanna watch twilight!!!...>.<
...sad sad...

...1 week...tiMe fLies...

...wow...
...cant imagine how fast the time past...
...im back to KL for a week ady...
...2nd sem started...
...got my results...
...is quite happy with only my ELD n ACF results...
...the other 3 subject i not happy with it...
...tht means i noe where i should put more effort lo...
...jiayou jiayou!!!!...
...even though the 2nd sem juz started...
...but the assignments n test ady there waiting for me...
...gotta manage my time well this sem...
...seems like there's a lot of thingy to complete by oct...
...nov will be my WACE Exam ady...
...Aug or Sept will have to sit for my ELD oral test...
...seems like that's the scary part of ELD...
...have to face it ALONE in the room...
...*shivering*...
...sure super nervous de...
...oh my...
...>.<...

...today till fri is the Career Exploration Week for AUSMAT students...
...tht means there's a lot of activities going on...
...^^...
...juz attended the forum session...
...attended 3 forums...
...for nutrition, business and medicine...
...i like the medicine forum the most!!!...
...Dr Daniel Wong from UM Medical Center is the speaker for the forum...
...a funny doctor with his interesting talks...
...heart it...
...noe quite a lot of things bout studying medicine n the field of medicine...
...*thumbs up*...
...although medicine is not in my choice of consideration...
...but...
...seems like tht field is an interesting field...
...tmr going to MALACCA!!!...
...another activity of the event...
...trip to Malacca Manipal College...
...there were 9 choices for every of us to choose for the trip...
...wanted to go Yakult de...
...but full ady...
...then since the malacca trip is for the students who r interested in medicine, dentistry n pharmacy...
...then i choose to participate in tht trip...
...wheeee!!!!...
...1st trip with my college frenz...
...^^...
...must enjoy tht!!!...
...fri will be de last activity...
...a workshop...
...i hate workshops...
...but...
...its a compulsory for us...
...hope is a interesting 1...
...wow wow wow!!!...
...a great day ahead...
...*smiLe*...

...baCk in kL...

...im back in KL...
...came back yeaterday coz my 2nd sem starts today...
...my holiday really end super fast...
...oh my...
...holiday never be enough for me...
...so hate to leave my home la...
...aisk...
...but still have to...
...>.<...
...yesterday came back by MAS...
...1st time board on MAS all by myself...
...1st time walk in KLIA all by myself...
...came back evening n i get to see the sky turn from blue to purple to pinkish den to black...
...oh my...
...the clouds were so nice...
...sooo wanted to have a short nap but the view made me wide awake...
...started to miss home once board on the plane...
...haiz...
...i didnt cry this time...
...altough i hate the feeling leaving home sooo much...

...came back to the room tht im absent for 1 week plus...
...its still the same...
...my roomate even help me to wash my bedsheet ady...
...thx to her la...
...i have my cozy bed clean n nice once im back...
...^^...
...chat with her n unpack my stuff...
...oh my...
...haiz...
...super tired but i cant sleep last nite...
...>.<...
...my roomate was fast asleep but im wide awake...
...haiz...
...started to miss my family...
...i hate the feeling...
...>.<...
...tears...
...i also dunno what time i sleep...
...but...
...its terrible to sleep when there is tears in ur eyes...
...have to go through all these once im back frm holiday...
...haiz...
...thts life...
...buck up!!!...
...sem 2 ady...
...another 4 months to finish my course...
...i can do it!!!...
...with FLYING COLORS...
...bLess me!!...
...nite...

...tmr goiNg bacK Lo...

...refer to my title...
...im going back to kl tmr...
...back to sunway...
...back to my room...
...oh my...
...my holiday end soooo fast?!!...
...oh my...
...>.<...
...okay la...
...its time to work hard for 2nd sem n face my results...
...haha...
...still got parents-lecturers day on the 10th...
...oh my...
...my daddy mayb will attend...
...so rajin...
...haha...
...thts mean i can meet them again next week...
...haha...
...not tht bad also ba...
...tmr gonna go back to my condo hostel with only 2 ppl in the unit...
...my roomate juz told me the unit is soooo quiet...
...coz only her n another housemate at "home"...
...haha...
...1st time lo..
...she waiting for me to go back...
...n post a note on my fb wall...
...so cute la her...

...i enjoyed these 2 days...
...i had a gathering with my 6AD classmates...
...my lovely classmates...
...such a cozy gathering...
...chat chat n chat...
...^^...
...we must meet up at least once a year like wat we said yeaterday ya!!...
...*hugs*...
...all the very BEST to everybody...
...west malaysia de janice,zxiong,sqian,kyuan n me will surely wait for east malaysia de pam,wqing,seayee n liying de!!!...
...^^...

...today...
...hang out the whole day with my best frenz...
...pam,baby wqing n liying!!!...
...we didnt gather like this for so long time ady...
...went shopping n chatting at cs n tebrau city...
...heart this outing...
...*hugs*...
...u gals must take care of urself o...
...at east malaysia must becareful n take care...
...i will wait for u all to come kl find me de!!!...
...haha...
...take care!!!...
...pic pic time...
...^^...

...♥ my DAD!!♥ my MUM!!...

...so proud of my dad lah!!...
...my dad on newspaper today...
...^^...
...he gave a speech on an event at Mutiara Hotel yesterday...
...as an representative from MAYBANK...
...wow...
...dad was great!!!...
...my IDOL n HERO!!!...
...a short interview on him n photo of him on newspaper...
...so dashing, handsome!!!...
...THATS MY DAD!!!...
...*heart it*...
...muacksss...
...daddy is the BEST!!!...

...had a very long talk with mummy yesterday night...
...told mummy im sad n emo...
...told her everything i feel...
...cried all my heart out...
...n told her im back to the emo me...
...back to the balck period of my life...
...mummy is the only 1 who knew how sad i m...
...she was there the whole period...
...n now...
..."look forward...dont always look backward"...
...thts wat mummy said...
...but she knew i will be sad in this kinda period...
...sleep with tears in my eyes n face...
...i knew my eyes will swell..
...coz i really cried badly...
...>.<...
...but...
...i felt better this mmorning...
...*hugsss*...
...thx mum...
...im sorry if i said something bad yesterday...
...i cant control myself...
...i will think positive n move on with a brand new life...
...continue the life im given...
...i will...
...promise!!...


...went shopping juz now with my family!!!...
...tebrau city...
...im sooo happy coz daddy bought a shoe for me...
...^^...
...NIKE sweet classic...
...OH MY...
...im so glad they have my size...
...yeah!!!...
...my sweet shoes...
...sweet classic...
...heart nike!!!...
...a new shoes for my new journey...
...a SWEET NEW JOURNEY!!!...
...JANE...
...move on with SMILE on ur FACE!!!...
...*winks*...

...I HEART MY FAMILY!!!!...

...1 weEk pAst...

...oh my...
...1 week actually past juz like this...
...last week at this time im at 1 Utama de cinema enjoying my 3D movie...
...but but...
...now...
...awh...
...i dont feel like going back on wed ady la...
...>.<...

...wed nite...
...chatted with huisin through skype but failed...
...then changed to phone...
...haha...
...a great chat till morning...
...heart it heart it!!!...

...thurs...
...morning started outing with eeling babe...
...then went wenjin house for another gathering...
...with beesian, shunqian, kokyuan n mianjie...
...chatting chatting n chatting in wenjin's room till 7pm...
...we r so great in chatting right??...
...haha...
...1st gathering after im back...
...so so so happy...
...heart it heart it!!!!...
...thx guys...
...im bored till...
...luckily u guys date me out!!!...
...^^...

...fri...
...went to eeling's house n had lunch prepared by eeling's mum...
...nice nice...
...thx auntie...^^
...then...
...went to jusco with...
...kokyuan, shunqian, beesian, wenjin n eeling babe...
...saw nd, kuanyew n qhao...
...sorry coz didnt chat with them...
...when gals bz shopping...
...u noe wat will happen...
...ooppsss...
...haha...
...a simple hi to them only...
...continue walk around...
...didnt buy lotsa things also la...
...but then...
...window shopping is great too...
...*winks*...
...great day also...
...^^...

...another few days here n im going back lo...
...>.<...
...date me date me date me!!!...
...hope to see every of my frenz b4 they going to uni...
...>.<...
...so...
...date me out!!!...
...haha...
...^^...

...haagen-dazs...♥...

...jouRney baCk to Home...

...im back...
...to my HOME SWEET HOME...
...yeah!!!...
...im happy...
...coz im back to a place i familiar the most!!...
...hmmm...
...my family came n pick me up on fri n we went to sunway pyramid for lunch n shopping...
...we ate a lot of things...
...daddy soooo good la...
...bring us to haagen-dazs...
...eat my favourite ice cream...
...heart haagen-dazs la...
...the icecream are superb!!...
...i heart the brownies the most!!!...
...i ate most of it...ooopppssss...
...hahaha...
...after tht went shopping...
...bought a clothes in MNG...
...then brought mummy to c the bag i spot on in roxy...
...but...
...i didnt buy it...
...mummy said it isnt special...
...then said i better think twice b4 buying it...
...so...
...i heed her advice lo...
...sad sad...
...aisk...
...>.<...
...nvm la...
...i will wait for their new collection then...
...wont be long ba...
...>.<...
...haha...
...then went for dinner with my cousin...
...a great dinner...
...after dinner went for 3D...
...TOYS STORY!!!...
...thts great!!!...
...thx to my cousins...
...heart them...
...^^...
...went to my cute niece bday celebration the next day...
...cute niece,avril...
...look so cute+pretty...
...lucky lil gal...
...^^...

...came back to jb after the celebration...
...jam for alomost 2 hours frm kl to seremban...
...>.<...
...poor daddy...
...so tired lo...
...>.<...
...so touched coz daddy had a hectic week tht week...
...sure very tired de lo...
...long journey driving somemore...
...i love u dad!!!...
...finally back to my HOME!!!...
...relax for 3 days ady since im back...
...went to changed my ic yesterday...
...went for lunch n shopping with family today...
...went for a haircut also...
...relax relax relax...
...emo emo emo...

...baCk bAck baCk to homE swEEt hoME♥...

...done packing...

...yipee!!!...

...finished my last paper...

....n i dont wanna talk bout it...

...not very good i think...

...owhh...>.<

...its okay la...

...wont be tht bad also ba...

...cheer...

...back to my hostel after the exam...

...so happy...

...then tried to call my sis...

...but nobody answer the call...

...start packing back to jb...

...haha...

...dunno wat to pack also...

...only my lovely lappie...

...my file n a few books for revision...

...thts all...

...haha...

...so fast then ady packed finish...

...daddy called...

...so happy...

...haha...

...thought they reached ady...

...but...

...they still at pagoh...==

...haha...

...another 2 hours...

...but im ady hungry...

...so sms my roomate n ask her to but hot & roll for me...

...niceee niceee...

...choc banana...

...yummy...

...haha...

...everybody posted which uni they got on FB...

...happy for them...

...but at the same time i felt quite sad...

...i should be like everyone of them...

...checking de upu results...

...but...

...ya...

...no chance for me to do so...

...i didnt even applied...

...T.T...

...really envy them coz they follow the track after stpm so well...

...apply uni...

...wait for uni...

...go for uni...

...but not me...

...1 moRe daY...

...yiPee...

...yeah!!...

...tmr will be the day im looking forward to since im back frm jb last time...

...^^...

...yesterday night skype with my family n cousins...

...a very noisy conference filled with joy n warmth...

...heart it...^^

...my cousins ady planned to go for a midnight movie tmr night...

...my bro n sis is soooo happy bout tht plan...

...3D movie tmr night...

...5 of us will be dumping my mummy n daddy at my cousins' condo...

...n go for midnight movie...

...wooohooo!!!...

...happy...^^

...but i still have to face my accounting n finance paper tmr morning b4 i get to enjoy myself...

...i will try my best for tht paper...

...then back to my hostel packing n waiting for my family to pick me up...

...so excited ady now...

...haha...

...no no no no...

...focus on accounting n finance 1st JANE!!!...

...good luck to me!!!...

*p/s: best of luck to all my beloved frenz who r waiting for upu result tmr...u all will be very lucky n get the uni n course u all want de...good luck!!!^^

...my MANGO DESSERT n joey's PURPLE RICE DESSERT...

!!yum yum yum!!

...4th paPer...reLax...

...4th paper ended ady...
...left the last 1...
...ACCOUNTING n FINANCE...
...haha...
...so happy...
...i gotta do well in accounting...
...coz got 2 days to do full preparation...
...yipee!!!...
...relaxed the whole afternoon n night...
...haha...
...finished my CINDERELLA'S SISTER...
...so so so nice la...
...love this drama so so so so much...
...the song are nice also...
...*thumbs up*...
...haha...
...then waited for Joey to finish her CAE...
...she's now free...
...no paper for her ady...
...>.<...
...i wished i can end it ealier also..
...aisk...
...>.<...
...y accounting n finance last paper??...

...while waiting for her at the ground floor of my hostel...
...saw many parents waiting for their children...
...some stuffing stuffs in the car...
...many holiday ady ba...
...OMG!!!...
...miss home in a sudden...
...i wanna go back earlier...
...but cant bear to leave my roomate here alone also la...
...poor thing...
...i noe the feeling staying alone...
...>.<...
...luckily joey came down n stop me frm emo-ing...
...i must think positive la...
...fri the same thing will happen to me also ma...
...my family coming to pick me up also ar...
...its juz 3 days ahead...
...right??...

...okay...
...then waited for a while for the shuttle to pyramid...
...like the shuttle service la...
...can go to many places in sunway FOC...
...no transport problem...
...*thumbs up*...
...went to c whether got any nice movie to catch since we got a whole night to spend...
...but then...
...all the nice movie will only show on the 17th...
...poor me...
...cant join them for movie...
...T.T...
...no movie for us today...
...then went shopping lo...
...oh my...
...saw a bag in ROXY tht i like it so much...
...a wallet also...
...gotta put it in my wishlist n let mummy have a look b4 i buy...
...haha...
...can i have them as a present??...
...mummy daddy pls...
...haha...
...then tried a dress in FOREVER 21 tht i like it so much...
...but...
...too loose for me...
...so sad...
...>.<...
...haiz...
...bye bye to de pinkish party dress...
...>.<...

...a great dinner at BBQ PLAZA...
...then...
...went for dessert after dinner...
...YUMMY YUMMY...
...MANGO DESSERT!!!...
...heart it...
...^^...
...overall...
...a happy nite for me...
...gotta start working real hard tmr morning...
...nitez...
...^^...

...3rd paPer...

...yipee!!!...
...im so happy coz im counting down for the last 2 papers...
...n most importantly...
...im counting to meet my family!!!...
...oh my...
...im so happy now...
...went i open my eyes this morning...
...i felt so happy...
...its the week im looking forward to...
...great day started with a great mood...
...monday blue??...
...nahhh....
...not for this week...
...^^...
...i did my best for today paper...
...maths maths...
...didnt finish a 6 marks ques...
...but...
...i did everything i can dy...
...so...
...its okay i guess...^^

...chat with mummy after lunch with my frenz...
...mummy said ady receive de letter frm college for next sem fees...
...hahaha...
...super efficient...
...havent holiday ady received...
...haha...
...good also...
...daddy can settle it when he come n pick me up on fri...
...goody...
...gonna end my 1st sem at sunway...
...super fast...
...3 months past ady...
...mummy said according to the letter...
...2nd sem will begin on the 1st july...
...aisk...
...tht means i really gotta come back on the 30th liao...
...>.<... ...y cant start the sem on mon of the following week??... ...then i can spend more time with my family ma... ...>.<...

...gotta work hard for my BIOLOGY lo...
...tmr i got to relax for a while after bio paper...
...BUCK UP!!...
...^^...

...disappointed...

...headache!!!...

...having headache after hours of maths...
...oh no...
...i hope it will go of after resting for a while...
...haiz...
...i tried to absorb everything in 1 time...
...i think i have to rest in intervals...
...or else the headache will juz get worst...
...not enough sleep i think...
...slept bout 3am yesterday...
...sms with babe,eeling + studying...
...haha...
...long time didnt sms with her like tht liao...
...talk bout things happened to her n something i wanted to noe frm her...
...gal...cheer up k??...
...everything will be alright soon...
...juz let all those past n a better future is juz in front of ur eyes...
...^^...

...quite disappointed to some of my frenz...
...now only i noe tht u all r not at my side...
...i cant stop u all to have different views...
...its ur right to have different views...
...but...
...thts not a supporting 1 at all...
...so wat i can say is...
...im DISAPPOINTED...

何維健 - 變化

...♥BIOLOGICAL SCIENCE♥...

...wiLL be HUGGING my BIOLOGICAL SCIENCE the whoLe nite...^^♥

...2nd pApeR...

...finished my CHEMISTRY ady!!!...
...so happy...
...tht means 3 more paper to go...
...todays paper quite dissappointed lo...
...i dint manage my time well n...
...ya...
...i cant get to finish de whole paper...
...2 hours is really not enough for the whole paper la...
...>.<...
...i only get to finish till ques 29...
...32 ques altogether...
...OMG...
...super SAD!!...
...T.T...
...but quite a lot of ppl cant finish it also...
...everybody in the hall complaining bout not enough time...
...luckily im not the only 1...
...>.<...
...i lose bout 20+ marks ady la...
...OMG!!!!...
...tht means my marks will be deducted from 80...
...>.<...
...but still quite happy while doing it la...
...at least i filled all the ques in the front...
...a lesson for me...
...i have to read fast, write fast n do fast next time...
...i WONT repeat the same old mistake again...
...another 3 papers to go...
...gotta work hard on my bio n maths this weekend...
...alone in hostel again...
...>.<...
...have to study...
...wat to do...
...wont be going to my cousin house i think...
...>.<...
...haiz..!!!

...juz now called back home n chat with mummy again...
...told her bout the exam...
...encouragement from her made me feel much much more better now...
...thinking of the day the coming to pick me up make me feel soooo happy...
...i cant wait to go back to jb...
...my home sweet home...
...cant wait to have my holiday then i can really rest without worries...
...cant wait to hang out with my frrenz...
...cant wait to meet mr YONG on the 29th or 30th...
...quite sad though...
...jyang going back to jb when im about to come back liao...
...haiz...
...hope can at least meet up for a while...
...miss ALL of THEM!!!...

...1st paPer...

...yipee...
...finish my 1st EALD paper...
...wrote essay tht i think not very long lo...
...i gave 3 points only coz of insufficient of time...
...thts wat my cute lecturer,ms julia told me to do...
..."if there's no enough time to write more points...
...juz write 3 and elaborate it well"...
...i hope my points r correct...
...pls give me high marks for my IDENTITY essay...
...^^...

...got my maths test results...
...ya...
...disappointed 1...
...haiz...
...not going to think bout it...
...wat past i will juz let it past...
...MATHS on mon...
...i will show the effort i put in all these while in it...
...promise will be a good one...

...went back to my unit after lunch with xinyi n joey...
...a tv set is on the dining table...
...a paper from the management...
...'testing model,tv rack n cable will be fix soon'
...wow...
...we will be having tv in our unit liao...
...should i be happy bout it??...
...haha...
...no astro wor...
...>.<...
...sad sad...
...but i think wont have the time to watch the tv also la...
...haha...
...hostel with tv...
...not bad...
...*thumbs up*...

...called mummy after settled myself down...
...my cute bro pick up the phone...
...miss him...
...n my sis n my big bro...
...10.06.10...big bro de bdae...
...*happy bdae bro...*
...^^...
...told mummy bout my exam n the tv thingy...
...chat with mummy...
...wat mummy repeat n repeat is...
...'eat ur scotts ady,had ur lunch,go take a rest,dont stay up till too late..'
...haha...
...everytime the same thing...
...but...
...i felt so warmth when all these ques were asked...
...mummy said juz 1 more week...
...very fast de...
...i can go back ady...
...i noe it will passed very fast...
...but...
...i dont like to countdown...
...it seem sooo long la...
...>.<...
...gotta work hard...
...i will rmb tht...
...FIGHT FOR WAT U WANNA STUDY IN FUTURE...
...i CAN do it!!...

...dOwn doWn dowN...

...study break today...
...slept till 10 today...
...should be happy coz i can sleep till sooo late...
...but...
...im not myself today...
...i also dunno wat happen to me...
...>.<...
...studied after my breakfast...
...chem whole morning...
...till bout 2 went to LUNCHBOX n had my lunch...
...went back to my room n continue chem...
...like a robot...
...doing things tht i should do...
...revision...
...till my roomate back from schl...
...she sense tht im moody...
...wow...
...she sensed tht...
...ya...
...i told her...
...chat for a while n we went to poolside n get our dinner...
...feeling a bit okay after tht...
...mayb i juz need someone to talk too...
...or mayb im too stress bout the EVALUATION EXAM starting frm tmr...
...ya...
...tons of stress on me...
...i dont wanna disappoint myself again...
...its quite hurt when u put in effort to do something...
...but in the end the results is not equal to wat u put in it...
...im moody coz of tht...
...without realising...
...i will still put all in and fight this time...
...thts wat i should do now!!!...


...skype with my family tht day...
...the first sound i heard is my daddy's voice...
...feel like crying everytime heard my daddy call me 'girl'...
...T.T...
...but the video is on...
...so...
...i have to smile n be happy...
...in order not to let him worried bout me...
...daddy asked me bout my test after his long long ques of did i take scotts everyday,eat fruits or not,got feel uncomfortable or not n etc...
...i told him my results not very good...
...n he said,nvm..its juz test..dont push urself too hard..rmb to get enough rest...
...tears in my eyes...
...but i have to control it frm falling down to my cheeks...
...daddy said its okay...
...mummy said so too...
...>.<...
...sometimes i really felt soo bad for making them soo worried bout me...
...not in my studies...
...but my health...
...thts wat they care most...
...haiz...
...i feel bad for my test results...
...but they find reasons for me in order not to feel bad...
...>.<...
...they dont want me to feel stress bout tht...
...T.T...
...i will work hard for my EE...
...the results will be great...
...i really do hope so...

...daddy told me he going to fetch me back after my last paper on fri...
...YIPEEE!!!...
...my family coming to fetch me...
...on the 18th...
...i wish daddy can send me back on the 30th also...
...but kindda impossible ba...
...daddy gotta work on tht day...
...coming back alone by flight again i guess...
...dont like it at all...
...>.<...

...18th June afternoon...
...the moment i can meet my family...
...it juz another 1 week...
...thts the motivation for me to FIGHT now...
...i miss them sooo much...
...n my win n new lil belle...
...my new doggie...
...belle...i cant wait to meet u...
...belle,pls be good when i meet u k??...
...^^...
...okay...
...found my motivation now...
...gotta continue lo...
...EE...
...im coming!!...

...mOndaY bLueS aGaiN...

...haiz...
...i thought i wont get monday blues...
...but unfortunately...
...haiz...
...im sooooo down n worried today...
...>.<...
...i got a deadline for my assignments till thurs...
...but...
...10 essays i only manage to do a draft...
...>.<...
...T.T...
...how how how....
...haiz...
...im dead...
...n im worried bout my evaluation exam...
...>.<...
...its next week...
...okay...
...im really worried...

...mY 1sT weeKenD at hOsteL...

...yaya...
...my 1st weekend in hostel...
...i came to kl bout 2 months plus ady...
...but...
...this is de 1st weekend im here in my hostel...
...every fri...
...my cousin will fetch me after work...
...n i will spent my weekend there at their condo...
...my roomate went back every weekend also...
...so i dont like to stay here alone...
...i dont like lonlely at all...
...this week...
...my cousin going back to hometown,batu pahat...
...im soooo wanted to go back with them also...
...but...
...>.<..i gotta study for topic test...
...so i decided to stay here...
...at kl n study...
...coz i noe if i go back...
...my parents will sure go back n look for me...
...then i wont b studying for this weekend...
...for my studies...
...i decided to stay here...
...>.<...
...really missed home lo...
...especially alone in the room...
...i have to admit i didnt put in full concentration while studying...
...but at least i tried my very best to finish my hw n do my revision...
...im kinda sure...
...there will be more n more weekend here in hostel...
...coz my Evaluation Exam is just around the corner ady...
...i wanna concentrate on it n get high marks...
...put in quite a lot of effort ady...
...cant waste it...
...so...
...have to bear with it lo...
...>.<...
...my only motivation now is the holiday after my EE...
...1 week plus holiday b4 2nd sem...
...i wanna go home...
...n this time most probably daddy will come n fetch me...
...n will come back by flight...
...yipeee!!!...
...daddy coming to fetch me back...
...tht means can go shopping n go malacca with my family b4 going back jb...
...^^...
...i have to study very hard...
...den when holiday i wont b worrying bout my results...
...haha...
...GAMBATE.!!!...
...cheer...^^...


...eMo...
...my roomate went back to her hometown for her 2 weeks holiday...
...2 weeks leh...
...aiseh...
...alone for 2 weeks...
...will miss her lo...
...>.<...
...joey said she going to come n sleep with me...
...so happy...
...then i wont b so kelian liao...
...thx to xinyi also...
...accompany me for lunch n dinner yesterday...
...accompany me study for a while in my room...
...accompany me to talk...
...or else i will die of bored...
...>.<...
...conclusion is...
...i dont like staying in hostel during weekend...
...>.<...

...bYe...

...i figured out in juz a moment...
...im glad i figured out now...
...>.<...
...u will be moved frm my best fren list to fren list...
...sad to say tht...
...but ya...
...we r still fren...

...eMo aGaiN...

...sad to say tht...
...but ya...
...'emo' came back to find me again...
...i dont like emo de me at all...
...>.<... ...seriously... ...haiz... ...mayb i have to accept im a unhealthy person ba... ...i made my parents worried again today... ...at first i dont wanna tell them tht i bleed the other day... ...but my cousins said i have to tell them n daddy can ask dr fauzi... ...so i called back... ...n told them honestly... ...i knew mummy n daddy will b very worried... ...>.<...
...but...
...i really okay n didnt feel uncomfortable...
...so...
...dont worry k??...
...i promised to take care myself ady ar...
...i will b okay de...


...emo emo...
...i felt very down today...
...ya...
...very down...
...with a valid reason but...
...a stupid 1...
...i have to ignore all those ppl tht doesnt even care bout me...
...i have to learn to do so...
...in order to b happy n carefree...
...i have to live without even care wat others said bout me...
...i can do it right?...
...i will be able to leave this emo me behind right?...
...i need a shoulder n a pair of ear now...
...but at this very moment im alone...
...here...
...in kl...
...i have to accept this...
...im down...

..maYb iM wRonG...

...haiz...
...tmr got test i should be sleeping by now...
...>.<...
...but...
...im not tht happy though...
...how to sleep when im unhappy leh??...
...i think im being too bzbody bout wat my fren doing n so on...
...i shouldnt b tht bzbody...
...i noe my fren is trying to ignore me ady...
...mayb i should stop all tht annoying stuff i been doing past few days...
...i thought u wanna chat with me so...
...im so happy u chat with me n share thingy with me again...
...but...
...im wrong i think...
...u act back the cool u again...
...im less than 12 hours...
...mayb i missed the time u wanna chat with me ba...
...i stop it when u going to open up with me...
...i regret bout tht lo...
...sorry...
...i noe wat to do ady...
...i wont chat with u now when i c u online unless u start 1st...
...i dont wanna annoyed u...
...i wanna maintain the friendship btw us...
...take care yea...

...i dunno wat i going to do is right or wrong...
...but...
...i should stop being so bzbody right??...
...i thought its alright to care a fren by chatting...
...mayb im wrong...
...>.<...

...sLe...

...i got my medical report ady...
...yesterday...
...i didnt go to take it myself...
...my daddy took it for me...
...>.<...
...cant deny i was worried de whole day...
...daddy reached home rather late...
...7 plus...
...is the usual time but i still think daddy should come back earlier...
...haha...
...hmmm...
...i didnt ask him for the result...
...i scared to hear the outcome...
...>.<...
...then daddy told me...
...the report was out...
...there's mild SLE according to the report n doc...
..."o..."...
...thts wat i replied...
...i dunno wat to say...
...then daddy said i have to apply sunblock everytime i going out...
...100% protection from sun...
..."ok..."...
...have to be careful of wat i eat...
...allergies may occur...
...have to rest early n eat more nutritious food...
...i noe all tht...
...okay...
...i will take care myself...
...dont worry k?^^...
...i will eat regularly...
...sleep earlier...
...n take my sun block lotion whenever i go...
...n umbrella too...
...haha...
...wow...
...thts mean there's another thingy in my bag liao...
...i will take care myself de...
...daddy mummy dont worry...
...^^...

...going back to kl lo...
...later 9.40 pm de flight...
...haiz...
...time flies...
...>.<...
...i didnt really study this week...
...have to admit tht...
...met few of my frenz n my besties...
...kinda sad coz met only yesterday nite...
...all of them r bz ppl...
...haha...
...working...
...kinda envy them can gather n go for a short trip together after they quit...
...thts good...
...i wanna join also...
...>.<...
...but...
...i got class everyday...
...>.<...
...listen to wat they talk about of waiting their upu thingy...
...felt a bit lost n awkward...
...but still hope tht they can get the course tht they want...
...^^...
...good luck guys...
...all the very BEST!!!...

...5th daY...

...aiskssss...
...im officially sick ady...
...OMG...
...how come juz came back then sick ady...
...>.<...
...haiz...
...y i get flu sooooo easily???!!!...
...i must get well b4 fri...
...OMG...
...i dont wanna get "scolded" by Dr Fauzi...
...>.<...
...i dont 1...
...i dont 1...
...mayb this time he will suspect H1N1...
...>.<...
...choi...
...haha...
...flu pls go away by today k???...
...okay...
...i started doing my hw n revision...
...haha...
...thts a good thingy...
...bought 2 new tee yesterday...
...love it...
...thx mummy...
...juz now b4 dinner...
...daddy brought me n my bro n sis to baskin robbin...
...YEA!!!...
...today is PINK DAY...
...2 scoop for 1 scoop price...
...haha...
...thx dad...
...muacksss...
...bought so many ice cream...
...haha...
...happy...
...although im not suppose to eat ice cream...
...but then...
...i ate ady...
...oopsss...
...its okay i think...
...hehe...
...have to take med n sleep lo...
...nite nite...

*i LOVE wed=PINK day!!*

...eMo...

...hmmm...
...suddenly feel tht things will eventually changed with time...
...ya...
...everything except for kinship...
...i got a lots to talk n share with my fren...
...but...
...i dont have a chance to do so...
...time passed n everything changed...
...wat others told me was...
..."u will get new frenz n eventually ur old frenz will forget u...trust me...thts life...move on without waiting for anyone...bcoz everyone move on like tht"...
...i dunno is tht true...
...but the person who told me this ady went through all these...
...i noe this is part n parcel of life...
...we get noe of new frenz...n we move on...
...i agree on these...
...is it true tht when we have new frenz then we will eventually forget all those 'old' frenz?...
...i disagree at 1st...
...bcoz i still contact with some of my primary schl frenz...
..."thts wat u think...r u sure tht ur fren think tht way too?"...
..."......."...
...silence from me...
...wat can i answer??...
...thts somehow true also...
...im not them...
...how can i noe...
..."u juz have to face the true...u will b strong after went through all these...believe me..."...
..."......"...
...another silence from me...
...i will be strong...
...i believe in myself...


...The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart. ~Elisabeth Foley...

...3rd dAy...

...its the 3rd day ady...
...time flies...>.<
...started to do my homework ady...
...>.<...
...have to start ady lah...
...or else i will have to rush when thurs n fri...
...haha...
...i gonna do bit by bit...
...n relax myself...
...hehe...
... today went JOEL to have my hair cut...
...juz trim ba...
...a bit bit...
...coz mummy said its time to let my hair grow longer liao...
...haha...
...daddy n mummy dont like my short short hair...
...so...
...i juz trim lo...
...wanna change a hairstyle when my hair long enough also la...
...now only can wait till it grow longer...
...then went shopping with my mummy...
...yipeeeee...
...bought 2 shoes...
...so happy...
...spot on another pair of sandal...
...wait for me...
...i will get u by this week...
...haha...
...wanted to buy but mummy said i better think b4 i buy coz i ady bought 2 shoes...
...thts true...
...so i still put it in my considering list lo...
...most probably will get it lah...
...tmr will b another day of shopping...
...with my mummy n sis...
...yeah!!!!...

...i dont like to come down the days going back...
...but...
...my roomate counted for me...
...aisk...
...>.<...
...i dont wan my holiday end so fast lah...
...>.<...

...2nd daY oF hoLidAy...

...wow...
...its the 2nd day ady...
...>.<...
...yesterday...
...i used almost half day sleeping lo...
...super tired...
...haha...
...today went back to my hometown...
...to visit my beloved GRANDMA...
...almost 1 month plus didnt see her ady...
...miss her lo...
...she getting older...
...but...
...im glad she still healthy...
...i love u grandma...
...muackssss....
...went back quite late...
...so stay till 5 then head back to jb...
...i had a CRABS for my dinner...
...hoooray!!!...
...love my dad so much lah!!!...
...muackssss...
...wat m i going to do this week?...
...hmmm...
...probably prepare for my topic test...
...>.<...
...BUCK UP GAL!!!!...


...>.<...
...hope my blood result okay...